It is a Sunday. Unseasonably warm weather. Sunshine. A new dress and some killer new pumps! It is one of those days you can only dream of. I feel good from stem to stern from root to toot from top to bottom. What is so odd about all this is I am not waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I am one of those. You know the ones who while life is going good they wait for the bad news. The one who does not wish to feel good only because something bad will happen? It is coming… some kind of personal disaster or a comet hitting the earth or a dreaded incurable illness. I am now going to only think of the best. How could this be you ask? Little pessimistic me turning into of all things Polly Anna (- the bad dress and hair). Could it be? Sure. Yes it could why not. Who could be mistaken? BCarol is a wash in positive energy.
Why you ask… I took the plunge. Yes, I BCarol have been baptized. Now before you panic seeing me in an all white dress or being dunked in a lake or pool of water it was not typical. Nothing about me is typical and why should my relationship with God be typical?
First, I did not wear a white dress. A violet slip with a lace overlay in a pale brown with matching satin shoes (yes the heels were very high and all too cute). Second, I had a private ceremony with people in attendance who are individuals in many different ways. Thirdly, my music was all about me and I had one of the most talented musicians I know sing and play (she brought tears to my eyes damn she is good). I spoke of why I felt the need to take this step in my spirituals journey. A splash of water a little oil and there I was baptized!
Now before you think I have gone soft I did have a gathering afterwards. The repast included many enticing items and of course medicinal beverages. I think that my circle has found that a Mojito does have many healing attributes. One of my guests found that when she arrived home she felt relaxed, beguiled and romantic. Needless to say her husband now feels that I am an excellent influence and that I should have more gatherings of any nature! I do what I can….
Now back to the heart of the matter. I used the following quote in my remarks, testimony, ramblings… these religion things are sometimes so difficult to categorize. I look to one of my favorite books and quotes. The Color Purple "I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don't notice it."
Okay so I said “piss” from the pulpit. Not one of those things I would have tired to do during a Sunday service. The blue hairs would have needed CPR and the squad. Now that I think about it I could have met a wonderful EMT who would have seen me at my best. Hmmm something to consider.
The point is that as self-absorbed beings we are walking by God’s work daily without any kind of recognition. We want miracles that rival the super bowel half time show. We want to vote on who should be the American Miracle Winner. We want to know if God is smarter than a fifth grader? People we are talking about omnipotence here. Do you think some one who can create the universe is limited by time and space or bows to our every whim? Do you think God is sitting around wondering if he/she/it is smarter than a fifth grader?
The point is God made us and has given us the tools to be better. More loving, understanding, compassionate, kind, embraceable, musical, lyrical the list goes on and on. Still we walk past the color purple without blinking. We ignore the sunset. We ignore the laugh of a small child or the wonder of a child’s view of something that seems insignificant but when viewed by new eyes is awe-inspiring.
God has been kind to give me ears to hear music that can bring tears or rapture. I have eyes to see pigment used to express beauty and alarm. I have touch that gives me pleasure and pain. It amazes me the gifts that I take for granted daily. My baptism now makes me responsible for this yes my relationship with God. Now I have a bond that cannot be broken for better or for worse (I feel that I will have the better of the deal).
All in all this has given me the Polly Anna I never was. Me happy for the right reasons! Me thinking it’s all good. Will there be challenges? Yes, many, all too many some very painful other will seem impossible. God will be there for me. I will scream and kick. I will argue and fight but amazingly God will let me throw my fits. God can handle it. Wow, who would want such a job? I have no clue but I am going to do my best to be worthy of outcome of such a position. I hope that all who read this will be equally as blessed!
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